I’m lying on my bed in the late afternoon, the sun blazing outside as a Montreal heat wave slowly comes to its end in the crescendo of impending thunderstorms, and I find myself reflecting on everything that my “now” is comprised of. Summer in Montreal is what keeps people living here, and so it goes without saying that there is contentment and gratitude for heat, foliage, sun and seeing my fellow Montrealers (and the annual influx of tourists) out and about. Winter sees the masses huddled in protective winter gear, so it brings much happiness to see everyone basking in the comfort and beauty of summer’s offerings.
Weeks ago, I officiated a wedding for two people I love more than words can say, and I find myself still riding the wave of that beautiful experience. There is pure, untarnished joy related to the experience, which bubbles up now at the slightest thought of the wedding.
I received notice a half hour ago that a relative of mine who has been in my life since my childhood passed on earlier in the day, and so there is grief/poignance/nostalgia/love/gratitude bubbling up as well.
This second half of 2019 will see much travel, with Yoga & Meditation Vacations and City Breaks in Paros, Greece and Rome, Italy, as well as a work trip to Kamloops, British Columbia and some other personal jaunts to other lands, and for all of this, there is excitement and hope bubbling up.
I just spoke to my father, spoke to my mother yesterday, saw my two brothers and their families last weekend, and saw one of my uncles earlier in the week, and there is so much gratitude for still being surrounded by them 45 years into this life.
I played with my dog earlier today and lost all sense of humanness as I brushed her coat and acted like a big goofball with her, and there is such abandon and liberation that arises because of he connection we have.
Upcoming projects will involve passing on the insight and teachings I hold dearest, and there is much responsibility and honour associated to my role in the transmission of the information, as well as deep gratitude to all who have contributed to my role in the world today.
In any given moment, it all exists. The love, gratitude, grief, fear, sense of nostalgia, yearning, inquisitiveness, all of it…it all exists simultaneously for us all. We learn to observe it all, accept it all, be with it all and breathe through it all. We learn that through this power of observation we glean the wisdom that can only be taught through the nature of transience and impermanence. It’s all changing. And so we welcome it all, be with it, allow the humanity of the instant arise and integrate into our world view, and keep going.
This “now” is where it all intersects to form what is. It will change. It already has. So have we.
Take a moment to recognize your “now”, in all its fury and beauty and scary and lovely. Observe it. Appreciate it all. And watch it change.
Peace to us all.